so obviously i don't write much in this thing anymore. it kinda deterioriated a long time ago and i just post lots and lots of private entries. 


anywho, i'm in london for a semester and it's going pretty well so far. the only things that are bad are the food and how far my dorm is. but i'm enjoying life and about to go travelling soon :)


in case anyone's interested, here's my travel blog (which i actually post in):

http://tea-princess.blogspot.com/

pet peeves:
-people saying they'll call but they don't (and NO this does not only apply to guys, this applies to EVERYONE)
-people taking up the whole goddamn sidewalk and walking at 0.0001 miles/hour. move out of the way or walk faster
-obnoxoius people talking throughout lectures because they think everyone wants to listen to them instead of the professor
-people who litter obnoxiously/don't recycle
-people leaving me out or other people being left out

all of this boils down to one thing: people who are inconsiderate

currently annoying/upsetting me:
-not being able to tell people how i feel when things upset me
i don't understand quite why, i guess its my nonconfrontational nature, or my urge to always smooth things over and prevent conflict, well, actually those are the same. or my belief that my feelings are worth less than others, why not make it easier for the other person instead of bringing up all this unecessary drama, right.

but i guess what's bothering me is that the true test i use to measure my friendships is how honest i can be with that person about whatever. my secrets. my guy thoughts. things that piss me off, even if its the other person. and the thing is the longer i wait, the more these feelings are stored inside me, the uglier they get, and little things become much, much bigger things.

and right now, i feel like there's no one i can trust. except my family, and one person in particular, but that person is miles and miles away right now.

i'm finally done with finals, and sophomore year. finals weren't that bad, but there was so much lag time, and after what happened, too much time laying on my bed and staring out the window. my last final was yesterday afternoon, and then after a stressful moving-into-my-summer-apartment situation, i hopped on the bus for a six hour ride back to the city. ann and i slept and watched heroes on the bus (i'm officially addicted, its SO GOOD). then i cabbed it back from port authority and ate so much of my mom's food before falling asleep. today i spent the day in chinatown with the cousins, and despite the rain and dreary weather, it was nice hanging out with them after not seeing them for four months. so much food =))

i only get 3 days at home, and then i'm getting on a flight tuesday afternoon with tiff to san fransisco. i'm going to california for one and a half weeks for akdphi national convention and chilling with my psisters. i should be really excited, and i was a week ago, but i want more time at home and i'm not ready to deal with certain things. although. it might be better than i think.

these last two weeks have not been good socially, too much drama and stuff that shouldn't have happened but i can't really blame anyone but myself. sigh. i just need a break and i really need to be home.

after cali, i'm going to be ithaca-bound for 8 weeks. yay mcat class and other equally fun things.

then i get 2 weeks with family. my mom is planning a trip to yellowstone for a few days, basically first family vacation ever. . then a few days at home and then back to school. that's basically my summer.

sophomore year was very different from freshmen year. first semester was stressful, for obvious reasons, but i also learned so much. and i found my place among a group of girls. second semester was good, very very busy, but good, until the very end. it all flew by so quickly, and i know that junior year will be even faster. one step at a time though.

i have a feeling about this summer... i hope it's what i need

music: augustana- boston

there's like a foot of snow outside, and another one to come. the university closed at 12:30 today, which was no use to me b/c all my classes were in the morning. our physics professor announced it, and everyone was cheering but me. i was just like,eh whatever. although i think my review session for my prelim tonight is cancelled, boo. of course, all other schools in the area were closed this morning, but cornell had to remain open and then close in the middle of the day, which was really stupid.

so much snow outside, and the wind is blowing and basically its freezing outside. none of the paths were maintained this morning, so i had quite a fun time walking up the slope and coming down later. ack.

now if only this were a real snow day, where i could sleep in and play outside in the snow and drink hot chocolate. i want to go sledding so badly. but instead i get to stay inside and study for my super fun orgo prelim, whoopee.

Time for Ivy to harass everyone to come out ice-skating next week!

Top 5 reasons to come ice skating:
1) To see all your old h.s. friends, c'mon, you know you miss them. Just a little bit.
2) Ice skating is fun, and a classic winter/holiday activity.
3) Hot chocolate, yummm.
4) It's tradition. YOU DON'T WANT TO MESS WITH TRADITION, DO YOU? DO YOU???
5) If you're like me, you get to look like a fool and also freeze your ass off on the ice, what could be better than that lol?

So y'all better come, damnit. I mean it.


What day works best for everyone out of Wed-Fri of next week?

and even though i fucked orgo really badly, who cares??? cause i'm doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee














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today was full of things i like: cream puffs, pumpkin scones, the west side, riverside park, and lee! it was so nice seeing her and talking to her. we talked everything and it was nice to remember how easy it is to be with her. after we parted i looked around in urban outfitters and then the north face, before buying a headband from a street vendor and then going home.

1st night alone while mom and sara are in tenessee! woot! pretty nice. just chilling. came home, showered, 7th heaven, dinner, more 7th heaven, news, internet to plan weekend with college peeps. next up: chinese movies and relaxing before sleep :D

Swimming in the lake every day-- letting the waves' gentle motion carry you farther and farther out into the cool fresh water, sailing, fishing, sleeping in a tent, tanning, spending a whole day in a pool, walking around town, bumming in a hotel, outlet shopping, playing with amy's adorable kids, peeing in the woods (umm, i mean what?), campfires and smores, quality family time.

back to bare feet on hardwood floors, back to showers in bathtubs with pounding water, back to mom's homecooked chinese meals, back to my unsteady bunk bed, back to new york city in the spring, back to days spent in bed with good books, back to my local library where i can spend an hour picking out books, back to my beloved food network, back to asian soap operas, back to stretching in the morning, back to my ever considerate sister (hah), back to my adorable niece, back to my thorny, but loving mother.

it's so nice to be back.

it's so weird to be sitting here, with my room completely empty, shining, and smelling of air freshener, with all my belongings clogging up the hallway. i keep looking around, and remembering move-in day, although i'm having some trouble, because even though it seems so recent, i can't remember the exact details of that day.


i'm waiting for my RA to come check me out at 1:20.

and then i have to lug all my stuff to the bus station, which is going to be such a pain. i hope i can get peopple to help me, because even though i put a lot of stuff in storage, i'm still taking hope 4 bags and a carryon with me, so mom's going to be pissed. i hope the bus people are lenient and let me take everything, i don't know if there's a limit (i think it's two). but honestly, so many people are prolly using the buses that it should be pretty empty, so they'd be really mean not to let me take everything.

7 hours until home.

FINALLY.


now i just have to work out some issues about how i'm going to get back because no one's coming to get me =/


so tired. studying for 3-4 straight days staying up every night until 3 and getting up at 9 can do that to you.

going shopping with the girls later today. after i spend some quality time with my bed.


clock tower tomorrow. probably rock climbing too. ahhh i can't wait to have some fun!

i can do this.

after monday morning (well technically afternoon since i have to hand in my asian 212 final) i will be free.

spring is here again, blossoms are blooming everywhere, on the arts quad, near the library, outside my window, and the air feels so good. cornell days are over, our desk chairs have been changed, my last prelim was last tuesday, final projects are here, and finals are around the corner.

construction is everywhere, sand and soot getting on my feet, life is getting better, or worse. truss days meeting today, APO office hours tonight, concert friday, booksale saturday, disco saturday night. wild wild west night at okenshields.

i need sunglasses and toothpaste.

so much money going to fees and club things and semiformal. downloading things on DC++, grey's anatomy, gilmore girls, the oc, late nights, early mornings, living.

first hockey game tonight, Dartmouth v. Cornell, Section E, Row 13, Seat 12. that's right, i finally got to go to a hockey game, just when i had given up hope that i would be able to go to any this year.

getting the tickets was such an ordeal, but in the end i think it was worth it. i was supposed to get 3 tix from this guy for $25 each (talked down from $50, mind you), but when Jamie and i showed up at the Statler, he only had one ticket to sell because his other two friends ran off with the other two and sold them to other people. jerks. but the guy was really nice and gave us his one ticket for free and even tried to give us $10 to buy another ticket because he felt so bad. we didn't take the money, but we took the ticket.

i went into the game all depressed b/c i thought i was going to have to sit through it by myself, but 15 minutes into the game, jamie all of sudden shows up! it turns out that the box office had just one ticket left. from the moment she arrived, i started having fun. it's nice to have something that everyone is so excited about, that everyone has so much pride in, and that unites everyone. everyone is so into it and we have so many chants and cheers for every aspect of the game (some of them are pretty mean, but pretty funny at the same time) basically, it's nice to feel school spirit. and of course, we won, 3-1. go big red!


the big red lined up ready to take the ice


the crowd. notice anything?


zamboni man. apparently he wears a different costume every time.


me! only shot that wasn't too blurry. still not great.

man, that was fun. thinking of gettting season tickets next year. have to start saving, i think its around $250?

Death Cab is coming in April for a concert!!

Much better than the previous 2 acts we had this year (Third Eye Blind and Lifehouse).

oh how good it feels!

chem wasn't that bad, i'm happy.

just finished watching the notebook with jamie and christina. what a depressing movie. not that great in my opinion.


going home on thursday morning, for ONE MONTH! wednesday just chilling in cornell without the stress of any finals/work and i have a ton of packing/other shit to do.


i can't believe i'm officially done with one semester of college.

some crazy stuff happened. a few months ago i would have never thought i would have done some of the things i did. but some stuff i'm glad i did; it was fun. some stuff i should have done. oh yes, this is going to be vague. i'm happy happy right now as all 3 finals, which came one right after another sunday morning, monday night, tuesday night are all done. chinese, bio, and chem. and all my writing seminar stuff is done.

its freezing out, the glass panes on my window look like they're caked with ice.

i can't wait to be home and have NO WORK! to all my peeps~ we must be hanging out this break.

I just came back from taking my chem prelim and it was the worst test ever. IT WAS SO BAD. it didn't matter how many hours i studied or much time and effort i put into it, i'm pretty sure i failed. it was so much harder and tricker than last year's prelim, and THERE WERE ALIENS ON IT-- HE LIED!! WTH'S UP WITH THAT?


i feel sick. it was so hot and stuff in my testing room and midway through the test my back started aching and then after the test my stomach started aching and i felt like i couldn't walk. the stress is getting to me. thank god i'm going home tomorrow. i still have to write an essay for chinese and study for a chinese quiz. screw that, first i'm going down to the archsing. i can't deal with work right now.

just now i was sitting at my desk trying to do my hw but i got distracted by the sounds of people talking outside my window and the faint sound of rushing water. i got up, looked out my window, and there's a brown muddy river POURING onto the steps the cut through Balch from the direction of Dickson and Court. the water was creating miniwaterfalls on each step and it was really funny to watch people's reactions and how they tried to waded through the river.

i got jamie and we went outside to investigate because it was so bizarre. the water was literally cascading over the lawn, down the sidewalk and then down the stairs. SO WEIRD. so we followed the path of the water up to where it came from, which is this spot on the lawn in front of dickson.


AHH I NEED TO STOP GETTING DISTRACTED AND DO MY WORK.

So, things classes have been going pretty well so far. I'm pretty much settled into my room, the girls in my hall are great, I haven't done laundry yet and will need to soon, and I'm still without laptop and debit card but things could be worse I guess.

My classes all seem to be ok, but I didn't really have that much choice because of all the requirements I have to fufill for Arts and Sciences and for bio major. This term I'm taking:

Bio 101
Chem 207
Chinese 209
FWS: Modern Visons of the Medieval and Renaissance World
PE Beginner's Swim

I'm still kind of intimidated by my Chinese class; it's been pretty intense so far. My FWS is cool because we're going to read the Da Vinci Code and watch movies like Shrek, Monty Python, Ever After, King Arthur, The Princess Bride, etc. It's all about how the medieval and renaissance times are portrayed in popular media today. Actually, I wanted something more like Clothing, Culture, and Identity, which is all about the importance of clothing in today's society and how our clothing contributes to our identity or the one that's all about Kung fu/violent movies but they didn't fit as well with my schedule.

As for gym, I wanted something a bit more exciting because they have such cool gym classes here-- they have everything from skiing/snowboarding, scubadiving, rock/tree climbing, swedish massage, waterskiing, sailing, to horseback riding and on and on. But hey, I do want to learn to swim better too.

Oh, and I almost forgot to mention-- the food here IS as good as everyone's hyped it up to be. #4 in the US, oh yeah.

Club Fest was yesterday, and so far these are the clubs I want to join: Outing Club, CSA, Habitat for Humanity, and a modern/hip hop/jazz dance group. Oh and I'm pretty sure doing my dorm's intramural soccer team, too.

To everyone who's moved/moving in/ moving soon, I miss you and good luck.